Friday, Feb. 23, 2007
sugarsugar
yummy dinner at tokyo with karen tonight. feet are dead from clubbing. we went to Club Magazine and Sugar. fun fun. the music at Sugar was pretty good initially, but towards 2am, it always gets monotonous. so damn crowded too - i hate it when people keep brushing past and pushing their way through >.<
anyway saw k's xanga and omg, his model looks soooo good. sigh. i feel so inferior again. why why whyyyyyy do i suck so badly sometimes. it's not like i'm not trying hard - it's just that all the time and effort i put in never seems to pay off. i'm really, really tempted to make a whole new model again - but then again there's the matter of time. sighhhhhhh. tonight was fun, but reality starts again tomorrow. great.
tomorrow's friday.. assuming i wake up sometime in the afternoon.. i've got to get my butt back to the studio, make the roof and finish the windows. hopefully can get all that done before dinner. then after dinner, gotta start on my drawings. if i don't sleep until saturday, i should be able to get all of them done. HOPEFULLY! i really want to get all the drawings out of the way before sunday. if i manage to do that, i *might* consider remaking my model. mmmm i'm not sure. or maybe somehow try and make it look better. argh. i dunno. actually it shouldn't take that long, because my house is really quite simple compared to others.
*phonecall*
ok haha just talked to karen on the phone... we were reliving our night out... haha.. yeah it's fun but sometimes one does get a sort of empty feeling inside. i guess the essence of clubbing is that it is a transient game in the first place. but that's why people get addicted and want to go back for more again, to feel it all again. anyways looking forward to the next time we go :) which will be... weeks later i guess... i bet by then i'll be totally dying to go again, after much slavery at the studio again -_-
anyway glad karen called, took my mind off my model for a while >< man must be the post-clubbing effect kicking in... the emptyness phase like karen said.. haha.. making me easily unhappy with my work.. damn.
anyway gonna rest. tomorrow gotta go back to school and work harddddddd. ahhhh. give me strength. peace out*
roire at 4:31 a.m.