Wednesday, Jul. 25, 2007
GOODBYE!
it's been a while.
now's the time to officially close this chapter.
to be honest, i don't really care that i don't belong. it doesn't matter, and it's not a big deal anymore.
i'm tired of fighting.
i'm going to live my life the way i want to from now, i'm not going to change myself to suit YOU PEOPLE. yes, you people who think you have so much influence, who think just because you're popular and in committees and shit have the right to say anything to me.
i hate fake people like you.
oh god. seriously, GET OVER YOURSELF. you think i can't see beyond that facade? GET REAL.
i know there are a few of you out there who understand me and truly care, and for that i'm incredibly thankful. you will always have my faith and love.
but to those fakers, liars and various fuckers, i'm really.. tired. i really don't want to deal with your shit anymore. you know who you are. you've entered my life at some point and you know what you've done to me. even if i've treated you in a civil way, even if i've never confronted you or been mean to you, it doesn't mean i'm happy tolerating all your shit.
when everything i've believed in has shattered in front of my very eyes, i've no choice but to believe in only myself from now.
if you care, you'd ask, but i doubt even any of you will read this blog at all. which is why i'm perfectly comfortable lashing out like that.
if you see me again in the near future, and you think i've changed, let me tell you it's not a rash, one-time thing. i've got my limits too, no matter how soft i may appear to be. all you fucking bastards taking advantage of everything i've done for you. all the good things i've done. all my effort. everything is just taken for granted and ripped off.
and the people i really want by my side are never here. why is the distance so much torture.
so here's goodbye to you fuckers.
S-A-Y-O-N-A-R-A!
:D
may you all live happily ever after.
roire at 7:32 p.m.